The photography conspiracy...

yeah.. they all gang up and bully me!!!!!!!

btw.. i do apologise for the mindless "blogthings" crap that flooded this blog. one or two is fine, but i realise 20 million... isn't. just like photos. hahahah

anyways, it's sometimes interesting to read and see if it agrees with wat you think about urself. however, i do not think that you would know yourself best. i think there is one person, or a collective group of persons, that would be able to tell you who you really are. i think alot of what we think we are like, are self-deluded. then of course there are secrets we all keep, i guess if they are really secrets, no one else would know. wtf i'm a talking about anyway.

i really can't wait till 2006 ends. i need a more wholesome life.

on another note, i'm taking this laptop i'm typing on now for a 1 to 1 exchange tomorrow. actually i've grown attached to this laptop, hot pixel and all, but i dun think it's fair for me to keep it since it's brand new and shouldn't have any flaws.

i haven't been able to connect to wireless.SG at all with this fella, i saw it on the available networks for a brief moment (full reception too!) and then it disappeared till i had to leave about 15 mins later, couldn't get it back on the list. not sure why, was at BK Raffles City.

i remember a test from blogthings that mentioned something about the type of blogger i am. truly, there are plenty of things i will not talk about here. i won't even bother putting up a private blog just to say stuff that i don't want pple to read. i mean wat's the point of writing when no one reads? i guess pple who do so just need an outlet, and wouldn't mind reading back on their lives after some time. not i. i cannot talk to myself like that. no man is an island, and i definitely agree to that.

that said, i can function very well being alone. loneliness doesn't usually set in, i guess thanx to the power of the net when alot of my frens are just a click away. and speaking of that, i realise alot of good frens who are NOT on msn, seem to drift apart whereas frens that are on msn we will constant update each other. sad? quite actually... i can think of a few really good frens that well.. not say not good anymore, but haven't spoken for ages. MOO YOU ARE ONE OF THEM and i would definitely strike 4D if he reads this - even without buying. even if adrian told him to read it, he prob wouldn't. nevertheless i hope he's doing well. ahhahah

damn.. another mindless post. i think it's becos of the above reason, i just can't say alot of things i want to. well not that i WANT to... just stuff that is better left unsaid.

and before any of you say... wats wrongggggggggggggg?? nothing! it's always been like this! i just decided to say it out now, for some reason.

oh... i remember wat i wanted to write the other day. was kinda bizzare for me...

Shot a wedding last weekend, and the bride reminded me so much of pf. but u know.. these things happen and so no worries, i just shoot happily and it was a pretty normal day, great couple and all...

then in the evening during the banquet, i met PF's mum!!!!!!!!!! omg.. i didn't even see her properly, and looked up and saw her i was like..... silence. then she asked me "Forget me already ar?" and i said "nononono, how are u, good?" (all this in chinese, actually she replied in cantonese, my cantonese was kinda stuck for that moment). then something happened that i had to shoot and i carried on.

after the banquet driving home, i wondered how PF is. then i turned up the music louder, you know how class95 plays those songs in the middle of the night, and THANK YOU GOD for giving me the ability to very VERY efficiently (for want of a better word) being able to only remember happy things. that is such an advantageous trait to have, to be able to recall happy times. so many pple eat themselves up retaining emotional baggage, i sometimes wish i could pass some of my genes (or germs) to them.

there u go, this post wasn't so mindless after all.

PF, i know you sometimes read my blog. i think u're happy, hope you stay that way. =)

for the uninitiated, PF is my ex, and we don't speak much at all. as to what happened between us, it doesn't matter, anymore.