More therapy...

clickable.

Talent!

on another note, i spent almost 2 hours doing this?



is that talent too?

i'm not sure man... but.. it was, again, therapeutic...

Having fun with photoshop...

I dunno... it can be quite therapeutic.. if that's even the right spelling.

click for larger version:



do NOT ask me how i did it.. i forgot. truly. i mean, u can't ask a painter to paint the exact same picture twice.... something like that lar...

been busy shooting alot of... stuff. will post more soon.

I have direction; I lack magnitude....

MAGNIFY ME!!!

ok.. salah.. should be: give me strength!

anywayz, the title was in regard to my photography career.

you know i remember my applied maths classes in high school (they named the subject MATHEMATICS II, I was for pure maths) talking about vectors. they have direction, and magnitude. without both, they are lost. having direction but not moving, u well.. go no where. having alot of speed, but no direction to go, u're just perpetually lost...

i guess u'd be wondering why i lack magnitude. and i'll be telling u that i dun wanna write long essay.

oh well.. work load's a little less but there are still outstanding work to be done. february seems to be busy again, so i better get a move along! website is getting done, hope to be up by end of the month....

mindless post..

The Spell...

Yeah.. she should know wat i mean... =)

More of Jean...

was a record portrait shoot... 12 hours incl breaks, 1000+ frames...

anyway here's a couple more, the rest are in the usual gallery, updating as i get them processed..





link is here.

Alley Dance

I am beat... had a long day shooting Jean...

Just a couple for now, more to come:



clickable.




not clickable.

Dragonfly Ryan

title's a bit wierd, basically we went to dragonfly to celebrate ryan's bday, so happy birthday dude!!!

first time there... didn't think it was anything that special, but no complaints lar, lots of eye candy, esp when it's dark. had some drinks, dance a bit, but was kinda packed where we were seated so couldn't move much....

anyway.. this blog was never really meant to be journal of my activities so i'll leave it as that.

while thinking of something interesting to post.. well here's my new name card, sent for print and on the way:



short post tonite.. not feeling the best.. but well nothing that i really wanna talk about. honestly. even if the person that i was closest to was right here with me there would be nothing to say. then again, if such a person existed, maybe i wouldn't be feeling "not the best". ehhe chicken and egg?

wat u think of the namecard? =)

I have a Godsis...

yeah.. and i call her hairy muffin. ok long story there, or rather not long, but just keeping it private ahhahaha...

Anyway, this muffin calls up out of the blue and says she's my godsis, and well yes my mother did mention her to me before, i THINK i vaguely rememebered mama saying something about a god daughter staying at their place yadda yadda, but ok... so i have one, since she's my mother's god daughter, makes her my god sister? WHATEVER! (she likes that word ALOT)

not quite sure what to make of it, but we seem to get along (phone, msn, sms). it's amazing tho, you don't wanna know how old (actually, young) she is...

yeap.. i haven't met her, she's back in sg for a while, then back to au again for her studies. will meet her soon.

Just watched Moulin Rouge on dvd, got it for $14 i think, at gramophone. for some reason, i totally couldn't remember the ending, but i'm SURE i watched it before. maybe i feel asleep the first time, can't be leh... but anyhow it was way enjoyable. i've always loved song and dance, and haha.. everytime i talk about a song and dance movie, i ALWAYS remember "Centre Stage". dunno why leh...

I can foresee my dvd collection to get bigger now that i have the home entertainment system, it's just so much better to watch a big screen with 5.1 surround. and it's not as expensive as it seems or used to be. i bought the tv and it came with the player and 5.1 speaker system FREE - wat more can i ask for? yeah it's not a great system, but it's good enuff for dvds in a bedroom. or at least until i want to spend more money which is er... highly likely but neh, not on this, i'm done with this "project". hehehe...

i need to find myself again this year. muffin (the godsis) asked me why i was "losin e fizzle for it" to quote her, regarding wedding photography. i'm not sure why she got that idea, i guess i was complaining to her about having too many photos to edit earlier. my reply was: "it's hard to record love when you are not in it. lucky tho, what i know of it, i still remember."

it just came out.

so i ask u, do u need to be in love, to be part of it? to record it? to record the celebration and declaration of it?

then after that i watched moulin rouge, and it's a story about love, and i'm like WAH LAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU ok next.

wat a crappy post.

godsis' name is Sharon. =)

oh... i showed her my work and her next response (over msn) after a few moments was "holy crap". i'm not sure if that's a good thing.....

ADRIAN BRUDDER HOW ARE U??????????? shit man i haven't been talking to the fella for the longest time. we have to catch up bro, i been talking to moo quite a bit, dammit such friendships last forever man. adrian, did u know that moo and i haven't met since Z's wedding.. that's like.. More than a year liow! well.. the relationship never weakened. wonderful stuff! bros for life!

First post for the new year...

Usually people write about what they achieved or regret the past year, and what they hope to achieve and NOT regret for the coming... but not me not today.

It's kinda silly, but i just watch a movie on dvd and it's gotten me feeling kinda finny, strange. Love story of course, admittedly, such movies are my favourites. i enjoy watching romance and drama much more than war and action. I prefer to see on screen something that is real, or could be real, ideal even. Altho, the dvd i just watched is pretty far fetched and certainly less than ideal! that's right, love contradicts, so i do it too!!

Anyway if you're asking WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF is the damn movie, okokok i'll tell u! ahha... It's called "Wicker Park". I've never even heard of the movie, was at Carrefour the other day and they had two dvds for $30 so i grabbed 2, saw josh harnett on the front cover and i thot that would be good enuff for me to watch. yeah i like him, lovely charm.

I could do a synopsis of the movie but i think i won't. all i know is that... when you're in love, nothing seems wrong. that's how powerful it is, it defies your conscience. it's not healthy, but it happens. or maybe only in movies.

Anyway, i have managed to revamp my room to look REALLY decent, i just have to tape down a couple of wires, and unpack miscellaneous stuff that's still in the balcony to the shelves and i can take a picture and post it here. for the first time in my life i have bothered to do some "interior decoration" and even bought furniture to suit the room, lay it out to use the best of the space but yet look organised and pleasant. who needs a wife eh? u'd think i'd be the last person to say shit like that, but well, indulge me lar, new year leh!~!!

will post that photo soon.

if anyone's interested, here's some updates regarding the business side of things.

1. shih han had better be working frantically on my new website. he's nice, but i really dunno how his progress is. "nice" doesn't mean good work in a timely manner. but well we'll wait and see and if i know myself enuff, it won't go public until it is close to perfect.

2. tonnes of weddings from 2006 to clear, but beginning of 2007 is quieter for me which i am SO GLAD. I think i would actually be able to clear my work and NOT have any work to do come mid this month. I can actually say : I do NOT have anymore photos to edit, so i can DO NOTHING for a few days. let's hope i'm on to it and the sooner i finish the sooner i can have a break. not to mention collect money but somehow when i think of the back log i really dun think about the money i'm not collecting. and it "helps" when i get smses once in a while for couples asking for photos. i dun blame them, i would do the same, absolutely.

3. did my first "proper" shoot in the studio for a bridal magazine consisting of 10 models with 2 changes each. u know, another reason why it will be a very slow journey for me to get into fashion: there was absolutely no connection with the models, i only met them today, shot them (actually waited ages for them to get ready), and they left, and i can hardly remember their names. for the last group, i was calling them by the position they were standing (left, centre, middle) as there were group shots. i swear, it was so BUSINESS. i wasn't feeling, i was delivering. the photos turned out alrite, but the process wasn't invigorating to say the least. and i really had to rush. wasn't the client's fault that i had to rush, just some other silly thing which i dun think i wanna talk about, if anyone's really interested u can ask me. so anyway i figured: u can't shoot without a heart and enjoy it. u can however, do relatively well just using your brain. quotable quotes?

Think that's about it for now, time for some photos, here's a few that "made it to the portfolio" recently:





above images of jeff and cheryl, spent many years in australia with jeff as classmates, great to see him again, he's working in sydney now. GO!



finally got a shot of shoes that i am extremely pleased with, altho a little posed. no, the shoes didn't really get up there by itself! taken at Jostein and Annie's wedding, intersting couple, Norwegian guy with Malaysian Chinese girl getting married in singapore but live in Norway. Don't ask.... will post more of them after i process.



this is called FACE OFF! ahhaha.. 3v1 no match. the price of the three cars added together comes to about HALF the value of the single car, how apt that to find a partner in marriage is that priceless and then somemore?! ahhaha.. well that's an M5 there for those of you who can't tell. Well you can't really from this angle, but trust me it is...



here's one of felicia at her wedding day (image of her dancing with yingyao at their ROM in previous post). CONGRATULATIONS!!! she's already expecting!! unexpected for them but still great news! Found out when i visited them to deliver their album. So this tells me a couple of things, they either work fast, or i deliver slow! ok maybe a bit of both. Extremely happening couple, wishing them a happy healthy and chubby baby!

alrite, u know where to go for larger and more images.

Christmas Post....

Quite a different Christmas eve i would say...

had a shoot in the studio, in between ryan and damian came to view the studio, ended up staying and we went out and had dinner together, with another friend of ryan's, desmond (i think!!) who lives just down the road from me.

all (except desmond) are photograpehrs so we spoke about photography but more of industry stuff than technical stuff.

so.. 4 (single?) men spending xmas eve having dinner together. and it was fun! i laff until cock... desmond being the politically slightly dry humour without even knowing it kind, ryan the semi-aggressive and fierce fast to react spontaneity and damian, quietly one corner until we mention maisie.. Mahhaha.. oh well if they read my blog they will know wat i mean, maybe i'll send them the link. As for me well, i dunno wat persoanlity i am, i guess the kumster that cracks lame jokes....

i'm amazed. i hardly know these guys, but i enjoyed myself. damian i've met at some shoots 2 or three times, ryan once, altho he says twice, and desmond first time tonite. our ages ranged from 29-40 (won't reveal who's who ahhaha) but was great just chatting.

funny how the simplest things just.. work. light, honest and friendly banter among like-minded people.

then.. back to the real world.. my empty house. yes i know, wat's the go, always end up "unchristmasy".... cmon indulge me lar, i am SURE i have written in here somewhere before, and here it is again: man was not made to go thru this life alone. period.

well one more xmas gone being single, u'd think i'd be used to it. then again xmas is not over, i might meet someone tomorrow? ahahah.. there u go, lame jokes? maybe not...

and what happened to God and Jesus in all this? well, i do ask myself too.

All in all, it's been a great year, there's really nothing i can complain about. man should not be so greedy, everything in good time. in good time.... God's time? =)

Merry Christmas one and all, whether or not it's merry for you, it will be one day, believe that.

Iris, are you reading this!!?? =)

Enjoy your Christmas....

Felicia said that to me thru sms, followed by "dun spend your xmas rushing thru photos".

Then i thought to myself, that was exactly what i was gonna do. the rushing photos part. the enjoying part, well, that's kinda the sad story. enjoy what? the jams? the crowds? the rain?

ok sorree to sound all UN-christmasy... lol. anyway here's a shot of Felicia and Yingyao, at their ROM a while back, their AD shots on the way:



Adeline (and Gerald) also smsed to say not to rush her photos, being extremely understanding:



I have wonderful customers, they are my christmas wishes come true. There's nothing less i could do than to make sure the images are edited the best way i can, even if during christmas, i truly (and sadly?) have not much else to do!

Have a few bbqs and gatherings to attend, they don't take whole days, few hours at a time, which reminds me:

thanx for the invite Hshin and Diana, i'll be there for your xmas cum house warming party?! another wonderful couple that have never failed to keep in touch. and they know how to invite me.. "you must come and see the huge blown up photo u shot for us"... win liow lor.. use my ego against me. hahahah.. i'm smiling as i write this. they are truly my xmas presents. my lovely couples!! Here's the front page of their collage album, click to see whole album:



Merry Christmas to all my customers, may the love of Jesus strengthen the love you have for one another, and those around you, like myself, which I am extremely grateful for!

on another note, talking about the jams, crowds and rain this period, i got reminded of a story i wrote, which in the second part, tells of the (secular? - non christian) DIFFERENCE between complaining abt xmas (which i did) and loving it totally. read on and see if you you know what i mean.

Memoirs - Part 2

I remember how I met her.

I was shopping for a bath robe for my mother at Robinson's and being the typical male, could not, for the life of me, find where they were. I looked around, found a staff member and asked for help. Goofy was how I sounded.

"Would you mind telling me where I can find the bath robes?"

Her delayed reply rather annoyed me. I was already silently cursing at the screaming kids, irritating Christmas jingles and mindless people that were foraging through the Christmas items on sale. Lucky for her, or me, she was rather good-looking. That helped things a little.

"Why don't I bring you to that department? Maybe I can help you select a suitable one. Is it for your wife?"

Now, I don't remember Singaporean sales staff being that helpful, nor personal. Before I could think of a suitable reply, I found myself following her to a section that I swore I browsed through moments ago. I guess being male makes you blind when buying bath robes.

"Well? Who is it for?" She asked again.

"Er... My mother." I replied.

"Her favourite colour?"

"Yellow."

When we (more like she) finally decided on which one to get, I proceeded to the cashier and paid for my purchase. She was still with me, like she was worried I wouldn't pay or something.

"Say, do you want to help me shop for something for my dad now?"

My dumbfounded look was a Kodak moment. I couldn't really find anything intelligent to say so I muttered, "Huh...?"

"I said, I need to get a present for my dad, and I'd like you to help me out. That's why I'm here. I don't work here."

I wanted to dig a hole and bury myself. And plant some cabbage while the soil is still soft. I don't know how long it took me, but when I finally found my voice,

"Then why did you....?"

"Because you're cute!" She cut me off. It's like she anticipated my every move. Are men that predictable? "So are you gonna help me or what?"

I had never experienced the feeling of total elation coupled with extreme embarrassment at the same time. My heart was beating double time and my stomach, triple. I looked at my feet. Damn! My shoes needed cleaning.

She slid her hand under my arm and started to head for the men's section. "Come on, relax, it's not that hard, my dad isn't really fussy."

After we selected a blue pinstripe Aldo Rossini business shirt size 15, and paid for it, I was feeling much more comfortable with her. She showed no hint of remembering my embarrassment from moments before. Instead, by that time, I not only knew her father's shirt size, I also knew that he didn't like green, that his favourite food was fettuccine carbonara, that he called her roly-poly when he wanted to annoy her (she was a fat kid) and that his golf handicap was 18. I was smitten by her through and through. So lively and spontaneous, open and uninhibited, charming and intelligent.

"I want to see you again." I said as we left the department store.

"Why?" I swore that sounded a little cold.

"Because I still have other presents to shop for, and I'll need your help again." Of course, that wasn't the reason.

She raised an eyebrow, and then smiled. It was then that I was taken. The pure, unadulterated smile that is her signature.

As we navigated through the Christmas crowd that evening, I could only sense all things beautiful, the Christmas carols lingering in the festive air, the smiles of little kids eating lollipops, and the joy in my heart that would only grow in time to come.
____________________

Let me know if any of you want to read the full story. Most of my friends have already. This was written about 4 years ago.

The "4 hr appt couple"...

ok... they do have names.. hehe, Michael and Anna:





here are other wedding shots that i've not posted here b4, i think:







most updated wedding shots can always be found here.

i hate giving titles!~

i did mention that this laptop will be the bane of my life didn't i? again, in bed now just rotting away with this chunk of metal burning my lap, so might as well scribble some stuff..

so according to the last post of my star signs, and also other readings, i am supposedly a very outgoing person. i don't like to stay indoors, or home, and i like vigorous activity and exercise/sport..............................

ok.. do not adjust your tv set, this is perfectly normal, u didn't come to the wrong blog.

that is just SO WRONG. i'm the homeliest person i know!! even adrian, whom is pretty darn homely, goes out much more than me! but then again he's married and they should go out and do stuff together... and i'm single and busy with photos. so there u go...

then wat's this with vigorous activity? hello?? even cycling which i have failed to do on a more frequent basis wouldn't constitute as "vigorous"....

so much for horoscopes.. but some of the points aren't too far off.

anywayz.. on to more mindless chatter:

met michael and anna today to have a chat about their ROM on friday. first things.. i think i bloody talk too much! of the 4 hours (that is not a typo) that we were chatting, i think we only spend 20mins on the topic of the ROM itself. the other topics were about their AD next year (ok, partly related), about our lives in au (they studied there too), then suddenly i'm like talking about my parents and my aunty, of course in between somewhere i shared how i felt about the true meaning of photography.. which.. come to think of it, i never really shared it here. i guess it's something i can speak of without batting an eyelid, it's something that comes straight from the soul to my tongue, it doesn't have to go thru the brain, so it flows better when i talk about it, not type.... and why do i have to justify that i did not write something here in this blog is beyond me.

ok point of above paragraph? michael and anna, u have made the record of the "longest customer appt" i've ever had! ahhaha.. the second place is evan and rany (mainly rany) shorter, but more frequent long chats, in person and on the phone too. actually ar.. i think my first meeting with them was also about 4 hours.. hmm.. ok... out of point out of point!!

i feel so blessed when i can attune to my couples in a deeper way. i just hope they dun find me lor sor and tok cock too much.

ok.. to prove that i'm sincere, i shall stop the lor-sor-ness here.

p/s i was reading thru previous posts and realised i have quite a few typos. usually i'm quite particular about them, but i'm really just rambling here, typing very fast, so.. u guys please correct the typos urself, hor? =P

Thanx Yvie for this link... eheheh

alabe freechart



Rising Sign is in 12 Degrees Sagittarius
You are known for being open, frank, outgoing and honest. At times, though, you are also blunt and quite indiscreet. Others have to learn not to take everything you say personally, because you usually do not mean any harm. You appreciate living your life in a straightforward and simple manner -- you dislike social niceties and consider them to be hindrances to real communication. You have lots and lots of energy and tend to become quite restless if you feel confined. You demand the freedom to do as you choose -- you must be self- directed or you feel trapped and anxious. With your abundant energy, you enjoy being outdoors, and you should be attracted to physical exercise or to those forms of sport which can help you burn off some of that excess energy. Very gregarious, you love to socialize -- your innate enthusiasm livens up any gathering.

Sun is in 05 Degrees Gemini.
You have a quick, bright and agile mind, but an extremely short attention span. You love the external, kaleidoscopic aspects of life, but you tend to avoid (and even fear) deep, close emotional involvements. As such, you seem to enjoy travel and sightseeing and generally being "on-the-go." You get quite listless when things around you become static and dull, but your excitement returns whenever you are stimulated by a new idea. Chatty, inquisitive and quite playful, you enjoy practical jokes and games in general. Your moods change quickly and often -- you are very restless and constantly in motion. You are known for your versatility and adaptability. Your vivaciousness enlivens any social gathering.

Moon is in 06 Degrees Taurus.
Warmth, comfort, security and familiar surroundings are necessary for you to feel at ease. Very loving and affectionate, you prefer a steady, patterned way of life. Patient, calm and steadfast, you are not easily upset. Others look to you for support. You tend to be a slow starter and a slow mover -- others may try to rush you, but they will never succeed. Emotionally, you are quite stubborn -- your attitudes about people and things were firmly set in your youth and will change very little as an adult. You are also very cautious and conservative about spending money. It is not that you are selfish, you just need to feel secure. Beware of a tendency to become overly complacent and too self-satisfied.

Mercury is in 26 Degrees Taurus.
A slow and careful thinker, you like to present ideas visually and concretely. Abstractions are quite difficult for you to understand. For you, everything must be practical and useful in order to merit your attention. You are a perfectionist -- you enjoy being skillful enough to handle the dexterity required of fine craftsmanship. Cautious and conservative in your thinking, you are very slow to change your opinions. You are more apt to respond to an appeal to your feelings than to an appeal to logic or reason.

Venus is in 29 Degrees Taurus.
You are known to be a warm and affectionate person, and you tend to form long- lasting attachments. The reverse of this is that you can also be quite possessive once you have made a commitment. The beauty, luxury and comfort of your surroundings are important to you and you will devote much time and energy to making your home just right. Beware of your tendency toward self-indulgence, especially with respect to eating incorrectly. You also need outside stimuli to get you in gear When things come too easily for you, you can be lazy and indolent.

Mars is in 05 Degrees Leo.
You are a very proud person. Strong, bold, courageous and self-possessed, you love to be the one to initiate significant actions. When people expect a lot of you, you respond positively and will work hard in order to maintain their respect. But when your dignity or pride is threatened, you tend to become sarcastic, arrogant and domineering. Try not to take any challenge or resistance that you meet as a personal affront. You are very stubborn about your right to live your life according to your own principles.

Jupiter is in 14 Degrees Taurus.
Growth only occurs for you after you have found a stable lifestyle and a dependable, protective and secure environment. You are at your best when those around you provide you with a great deal of affection and support. When you feel insecure or threatened, you tend to become possessive and grasping and self- indulgent. You are an inveterate collector with an expensive preference for all the good things that life has to offer.

Saturn is in 29 Degrees Cancer.
The most important issue for you is emotional security. You have a deep and gnawing fear that those on whom you depend for emotional support will prove to be unreliable in the long run. When you are unloved and insecure, you distrust others and tend to feel isolated and lonely. Very cool, detached and objective, you can be counted on -- in situations that are inherently stressful or full of tension -- not to lose your self- control. That is a great and welcome gift at such times.

Uranus is in 03 Degrees Scorpio.
You, and your peer group, demand to confront life at its deepest and most meaningful levels. Very compulsive and obsessive in your approach to everything, you will avoid anything that is casual or superficial, especially when it comes to relationships. You will seek out and explore new methods of healing as well as different ways to deal with deep-seated emotional problems.

Neptune is in 12 Degrees Sagittarius.
You, and your entire generation, are heavily involved in investigating and idealizing foreign and exotic intellectual systems and religious philosophies. The most extreme ideals will be pursued with gusto. You will be at the forefront of humanitarian attempts to improve the lot of those who are in need of assistance. You will be comfortable with the concept of the "global village."

Pluto is in 09 Degrees Libra.
For your entire generation, this is a time of radical changes in society's attitude toward marriage and interpersonal relationships. There is a general fear and awe at the power inherent in making emotional or contractual commitments -- they will not be entered into lightly.

N. Node is in 12 Degrees Scorpio.
You have a special aptitude for working by yourself, or with a like-minded group of dedicated individuals. Once you've committed yourself to a person or group or project, your loyalty and devotion are total until the group's goals have been realized. Not at all gregarious by nature, you're uncomfortable around strangers, greatly preferring to be in known and familiar situations. Others may regard you as shy or eccentric, but those who know you well are aware of the intense loyalty that you have to your friends.

It's one of those nights...

when you just don't wanna go home.

no, it's not becos of naggy parents (they are 7000km away - and stopped nagging me 10 odd years ago), or bad housemates.

it's just, there's nothing there to go home to. i guess, there's no ONE to go home to is more accurate. i do have photos tho! i have customers to email too!

obviously i'm not home now. bleah.

so i'm gonna shut down this computer i'm on, get into my car, and ... drive home, unless i think of somewhere else i could be.

night QAD, u mentioned something about being left hanging? hahahah, the irony!

well anyway, thankfully, such nights are rare.

W

Can you believe it... my first "proper" shoot in my own studio. that's how busy i've been with weddings (and other location shots, not using my studio).

and... who says i only shoot girls? =)

Mr W, not a professional model, models better than many I've shot. And i am truly impressed at how "shang jing" he is, can't tell by just looking at him! slightly impromptu and totally unplanned shoot nevertheless:








more at u know where..

Sandy Lam RAWKS!!!!

oh my god she is SO GOOD!!!!!

i thought maybe becos i seldom go for such concerts that's why i so suaku, but seriously, i enjoy myself alot.. she is very talented. there's one thing to be able to sing (which she certainly is!) but it's another to keep your fans, or at least the audience, ENTERTAINED for 3 whole hours. Kudos to her and her team!

On another note, i'm now sitting at conrad hotel with shervon on my laptop with wireless@SG... seems ok, a little unstable with a weak signal, but i'm online and surfing! she managed to check her email without hiccups just now too.

anyway here's the photos taken just moments ago, thanx shervon for coming to the concert with me at such short notice. apparently she was supposed to play mj or something, ahhahahha, oh well:



man.. can't get over how good Sandy was... it was the last leg of her world tour so apparently the ending was something special only for singapore. hehehe =)

The photography conspiracy...

yeah.. they all gang up and bully me!!!!!!!

btw.. i do apologise for the mindless "blogthings" crap that flooded this blog. one or two is fine, but i realise 20 million... isn't. just like photos. hahahah

anyways, it's sometimes interesting to read and see if it agrees with wat you think about urself. however, i do not think that you would know yourself best. i think there is one person, or a collective group of persons, that would be able to tell you who you really are. i think alot of what we think we are like, are self-deluded. then of course there are secrets we all keep, i guess if they are really secrets, no one else would know. wtf i'm a talking about anyway.

i really can't wait till 2006 ends. i need a more wholesome life.

on another note, i'm taking this laptop i'm typing on now for a 1 to 1 exchange tomorrow. actually i've grown attached to this laptop, hot pixel and all, but i dun think it's fair for me to keep it since it's brand new and shouldn't have any flaws.

i haven't been able to connect to wireless.SG at all with this fella, i saw it on the available networks for a brief moment (full reception too!) and then it disappeared till i had to leave about 15 mins later, couldn't get it back on the list. not sure why, was at BK Raffles City.

i remember a test from blogthings that mentioned something about the type of blogger i am. truly, there are plenty of things i will not talk about here. i won't even bother putting up a private blog just to say stuff that i don't want pple to read. i mean wat's the point of writing when no one reads? i guess pple who do so just need an outlet, and wouldn't mind reading back on their lives after some time. not i. i cannot talk to myself like that. no man is an island, and i definitely agree to that.

that said, i can function very well being alone. loneliness doesn't usually set in, i guess thanx to the power of the net when alot of my frens are just a click away. and speaking of that, i realise alot of good frens who are NOT on msn, seem to drift apart whereas frens that are on msn we will constant update each other. sad? quite actually... i can think of a few really good frens that well.. not say not good anymore, but haven't spoken for ages. MOO YOU ARE ONE OF THEM and i would definitely strike 4D if he reads this - even without buying. even if adrian told him to read it, he prob wouldn't. nevertheless i hope he's doing well. ahhahah

damn.. another mindless post. i think it's becos of the above reason, i just can't say alot of things i want to. well not that i WANT to... just stuff that is better left unsaid.

and before any of you say... wats wrongggggggggggggg?? nothing! it's always been like this! i just decided to say it out now, for some reason.

oh... i remember wat i wanted to write the other day. was kinda bizzare for me...

Shot a wedding last weekend, and the bride reminded me so much of pf. but u know.. these things happen and so no worries, i just shoot happily and it was a pretty normal day, great couple and all...

then in the evening during the banquet, i met PF's mum!!!!!!!!!! omg.. i didn't even see her properly, and looked up and saw her i was like..... silence. then she asked me "Forget me already ar?" and i said "nononono, how are u, good?" (all this in chinese, actually she replied in cantonese, my cantonese was kinda stuck for that moment). then something happened that i had to shoot and i carried on.

after the banquet driving home, i wondered how PF is. then i turned up the music louder, you know how class95 plays those songs in the middle of the night, and THANK YOU GOD for giving me the ability to very VERY efficiently (for want of a better word) being able to only remember happy things. that is such an advantageous trait to have, to be able to recall happy times. so many pple eat themselves up retaining emotional baggage, i sometimes wish i could pass some of my genes (or germs) to them.

there u go, this post wasn't so mindless after all.

PF, i know you sometimes read my blog. i think u're happy, hope you stay that way. =)

for the uninitiated, PF is my ex, and we don't speak much at all. as to what happened between us, it doesn't matter, anymore.

I'm at it again...

this laptop will be the bane of my life....!

Your Love Element Is Fire

In love, you are a true listener and totally present. For you, love is all about feeling more alive than you've ever felt. You attract others with your joy and passion. Your flirting style is defined by your strong ability to communicate. Fun and play are the cornerstones of your love life. And while your flame may burn too brightly, it's part of your appeal. You connect best with: Wood Avoid: Water You and another Fire element: will likely burn out quickly

What Element Is Your Love?

why am i not surprised....

You Are 76% Happy

You are a very happy person. Generally, you feel content and that all is right with the world. Occasionally, you have a down day - but you have the ability to pick yourself right back up.

How Happy Are You?

if you say so...

You Should Have Been Born Under:

You've got a ton of energy - and need plenty of room to roam. You tend to follow your whims, and it's hard for you to stick to one thing. Specific jobs, loves, and friends are always changing and never a part of your life for long. Very intuitive, you tend to know what people are thinking before they say a word. You are most compatible with a Dog or Tiger.

What Year Should You Have Been Born Under?

alrity then... i was born two years too early....

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others. Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel. You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations. A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict. You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

ok.. sounds good to me!

You Passed 8th Grade Science

Congratulations, you got 8/8 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Science?

high school was a breeze for me, that i remember. yes.. i went to HIGH SCHOOL.. grade 9 to 12.. in australia. but no.. i was still in singapore in "8th grade".

You Should Get a MBA (Masters of Business Administration)

You're a self starter with a drive for success. You'd make a great entrepreneur.

What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

i just sneezed....

Your Personality Is

Guardian (SJ) You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented. Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules. You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader. You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you. A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do. You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up. In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly. At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions. With others, you tend to be polite and formal. As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself. On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them!

The Three Question Personality Test

ooooooooooooooooooooook something is WRONG here...... bad bad bad bad bad test!!

Your Birthdate: May 26

You lucked out the the skills to succeed in almost any arena. Put you in almost any business or classroom, and you'll rise to the top. You're driven and intense, but you also know when to kick back and cooperate. Your ability to adapt to almost any situation is part of what's going to make you a success. Your strength: Your attention to detail Your weakness: You can be a little too proud of your successes Your power color: Turquoise Your power symbol: Arrow pointing up Your power month: August

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

hmm.. ok.

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people. You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together. Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly. People crave your praise and complements.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

yeah they figured this out from just one pic... interesting.. or just crap?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

think i did this b4....

Your Luck Quotient: 73%

You have a high luck quotient. More often than not, you've felt very lucky in your life. You may be randomly lucky, but it's probably more than that. Optimistic and open minded, you take advantage of all the luck that comes your way.

How Lucky Are You?

cool then~~

You Are Boston

Both modern and old school, you never forget your roots. Well educated and a little snobby, you demand the best. And quite frankly, you think you are the best. Famous people from the Boston area: Conan O'Brien, Ben Affleck, New Kids on the Block

What American City Are You?

MAUAHAHHAHAHAHAAHhahahahhaha oooooooooook.. time to sleep...